Barksdale's Great Adventure (and Arby's too!): Back to work...

Avery Adelle...

May 26:
Geminis born May 26 are known for their sense of humor and sense of style. They are fun-loving, free-thinking people who enjoy life on their terms. They embody a youthful attitude that corresponds to their youthful good looks.
People born on May 26 love to surround themselves with good company and usually have an active social calendar. In love, they have a reputation for being frivolous, but they take their vows of love seriously. May 26 natives need the support of a loving family group. Although they may have grown up as part of an unconventional family, they tend to keep in close touch with their parents and siblings. As parents, they can be demanding, even critical, with their children. They foster a sense of competition, and they may struggle to relate to a child who is self-conscious and shy. Like many Gemini natives, May 26 individuals have a high metabolism, which causes them to burn calories easily. Because they lead active lives, they have no problem getting enough exercise. What they need is a way to relax. This can best be achieved through yoga and meditation. May 26 natives have many talents. They may change their plans many times before finally deciding how they want to spend their lives. Money flows in and out of their lives with considerable ease. Whatever their talent for accumulating money, they have little talent for saving. Professional advice is vital. Even though May 26 individuals have high ideals, they rarely have a clear concept of goals. These are highly idealistic people whose talent for daydreaming outstrips their gifts for concrete planning. When a goal is important, they will work hard to make it come true.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Back to work...

So today is my second day back at work...
Everyone keeps asking how I'm doing, if it's hard to come back, etc. And I was doing well until the end of the day, and it almost made me feel guilty that I didn't feel terrible for leaving her. I'm sure it would be different if she wasn't with my mom, but knowing she's in good hands makes me not stress over the fact that i'm not there. So I started feeling sad about not being there with her. Which I felt anyway and suppressed, but that's just the way it is, and i'm not really the kind of person that would break down at work, so i did fine. i wish everyone understood the mix of feelings that is going on... sadness that i can't have Avery here with me all day, happiness that I have a great job and enjoy what i do, happiness that she's being well taken care of, and concern that she won't remember that I'm her mom (even though my mom says she will and i'm being silly...). So i'm just conflicted is all... but at least I get to see this silly photo all day when i look at my computer (yes, arby got ousted from the desktop). :)
So let's just not talk about how i'm doing back at work...i'm doing fine, i just look forward to coming home every day, and when i leave in the morning, i remind myself that it's just like an extended trip to the hair salon or grocery store....
And i have to remind myself that I do enjoy being able to pay bills and live in my house and eat food on a regular basis, and that work is not only fulfilling for me and enjoyable most days, but a way to ensure that we can provide everything that Avery could ever need, and most everything she could ever want. After all, it is all about her now... and i wouldn't change that for the world. :)